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Planets Below

The aftermath of the run

where you raced for the sky,

is the beckoning of Gaia

calling you back,

as you look down on the planet.

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

Stories of a Broken Clover

Past midnight. I should be asleep. And I was about to, until I broke a clover. Not a real clover, nor issit one of the Seven Clover some of you may know. But a fake one, a Crystal Puzzle bought at Popular for $15. It meant nothing to me until now. And though I'll properbly throw it away in the future or give it to someone else, the things this broken puzzle showed me will stay.

"There are at least two kinds of cowards. One kind always lives with himself, afraid to face the world. The other kind lives with the world, afraid to face himself." -Roscoe Snowden

I was greatly affected by the puzzle as it lays in pieces on the ground. It reminded me so much of myself. How complicated life can be, and how fragile it is at the same time. 42 pieces, 2 broken. Nothing a little super glue can't fix. But still, the sight of a broken puzzle disturbed me and I set out, collecting the pieces to fix it again.

"If one have never shed no tears, one have never been beautiful." -Feathers Nirvana

Apart, it is a pile of mess. No form, no nothing. Just a pile of scattered acrylics wannabe crystals. But together, they form a clover. Like how pieces of ones life gives a person shape, pieces of memories. The stem isbroken. A hollow shell without a soul. Reminds me of how I am to others. They see the cover of the book but never the story within. A cover page picturing joy and happiness, may have a story of sadness and anguish. Similarly, a picture brimming with life may have a thousand pages unwritten.

"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose." -From the television show, 'The Wonder Years'

But the stem meant something else. It was broken. But the rest wasn't. Why is that? If someone hates another, does that mean they are sinners and are thus worthy to endure hell and punishment beyond all? But don't they know, that the hated makes them who they are today? I don't think that's right. You can't smite evil if the evil is you.

"Hatred is the fear of forgiving. Hated is the fear of not being forgiven." -Neo Deskett

There are no difference between good and evil. No diffrence between sinners and saints. For evil, evil is good and for sinners, the sinners are saints. A person who accepts one but rejects the other makes no sense to me. They are hypocrites who are unable to cross the sea surrounds their world and see for themselves the line between good and evil in the world of others.

"This is how humans are: we question all our beliefs, except for the ones we really believe, and those we never think to question." ~Orson Scott Card

For saying these things, I may be called a hypocrite myself. But I don't think I am one. If anyone else can tell, nothing I've said above should make any sense whatsoever. But it does doesn't it? But how can senseless have sense? A contradiction then? Then a contradiction I shall be.

"The only time you're perfect, is when you're not. Since you won't be you if you're perfect. You'd be God." -Adam Law

Remember the past, live in the present and change for the future. It took a broken clover to renew my believe in nothing so I can believe everything.

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Thursday, October 23, 2008

De-Stress

With half of the A Math, Science and Humanities paper down, I realise one thing. I'm as good as screwed. No matter how much I studied, I still end up blanking out during the actual thing. Even though I know I can do the questions in front of me, when it comes to it, I can't. I still have hope left though for hope is the only thing that is forever there, no matter how little it is. I have to do well for the other halves of the paper or my dreams of going into JC is as good as dashed. I am not repeating another year, no matter how good it seems. I will not be left behind again. Never again, will I go back to that shitty place. I'll conquer my fears during the paper and I'll push through. If I don't, well, then I don't know what I'll do.



"Slow down and everything you are chasing will come around and catch you." -John De Paola

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Sunday, October 12, 2008

Graduated

Graduated from school but not from life. Procrastination is taking hold of me even in this do or die situation. That's why this post is late. And that's why I haven't picked up my books yet over the past two days even though I know I really have to. I have a friend right now who seems to be in some real big battle with the inner self. Seems to me like the person is stuck in the well where I once was. All my friends, give me some strenght to do for this friend what you guys did for me. I'll be jumping back into the well to save the one left behind soon. But before all the crazy self indulged heroic acts of stupidity, here's some pictures from graduation, the rest are on my friendster.


Last class photo (darn Adrain)!

From front to back, me, Benjamin and Akmal (This photo was taken by pure accident).

Nina only. (She ask me change.)
After school in the canteen Chun Kiat, Anthony and Keith (left to right).

After lunch at the park, left to right. Valentina, Malar and Yu Ting.

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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Views

Seems to me many people believe I'll make a very poor teacher. But its something I want to do. And I get very little things that I WANT to do. I haven't even achieved yet but people are already judging me. I can change. I've always changed. And I'll change again, to achieve my dreams, I'll do it again and again.

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Monday, October 6, 2008

Things that's been happening

First off, let me thanks Marks Ong's mom, Aunty Marilyn for those O'Level Motivational Packs she gave so many of us today. I was kinda surprised I got one too since I've only met her a couple of time. I'm drinking the chicken soup for the soul as I type this right now.

Secondly, graduation ceremony. Why the fook is the graduation ceremony held BEFORE we graduate? Is it like to tell us, "Since you've graduated, you'd better not come back next year!"? If so, that's some stupid unneeded pressure.

Lastly, prom. What the hell is 'Shine'? Gold teeth and blings and shiny disco balls or something?Hell, I'm just gonna wear a tux. Hell, I might just wear shirt and jeans.

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Saturday, October 4, 2008

Heroes

Death and glory
in all this stories.
And heroes are born
with all their torns.
The light cast shadows
on the meadows
will you go
to show the work of heroes?

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Name: Ng Jun Xiang A.K.A: Aden, Benderboyboy, Bladebender, J-Boi, Ace, Tiki and many others which I cannot say. It might ruin the mystery.
Age: 16
Birthday: 19th February 1992
Occupation: Student, Writer
School: Republic Polytechnic, School of Information Technology, Diploma in Interactive Digital and Media
Hobbies: Gaming, Writing
Inspirations: Honey and Clover, Air Gear, Harry Potter, Velocity, Vantage Point

ENFP - "Journalist". Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.
Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)