Crash

Haha, play game until like what, twelve midnight on Saturday than computer suddenly crash. Finally exactly three days later on like what, midnight as well my computer came back on. Never knew Company of Heroes was SO graphic intense that it caused my computer to crash. Or maybe it's because I'm using a super old graphic card and I was downloading like three games, watching cd, watching youtube, surfing the net, playing Command and Conquer and Company of Heroes and transfering MP3 music all at the same time. But I'm sure all those have nothing to do with the computer crashing.

Sister: Forgive him, he's in denial.

Me: No I'm not!

Pain

It hurts...everything. I can't take it. I'm gonna break soon.

Time

Looks like everything is about to be decided. Our time is really ticking fast.

Identity

OK!!! Someone is stealing my name and I have NO IDEA WHO!!! Watch out, I'm coming for you!!!

End

Exams finally over. Not feeling much different. I still feel like something is holding me down, not letting go until...until...I b€%#k @re!...

Emptiness

Can't write anymore. Sometimes, I'll just sit in front of this screen and stare at that blank page. I can't see anything. It's blank...all of it. Just nothingness...plain pure nothingness. I don't need a life...just...the right move...the right journey.

Breakdown

I think I'm about to go nuts. sigh*. GOD DAMMIT, I'M CONFUSED!!!

Lost

They just flowed into my head. My tears fell like endless streams. My eyes still sting from the water trying to flow like an endless river. Who am I? Why can't I remember? I go by many names but... what did they use to call me way back when?

Benjamin, Terry, Guo Yang and... who's that? That's me is it not? But that's not who I am now...

Why do my tears flow? I thought I have none left.

So far in the distance. Those who pulled me from darkness... where have you gone? I can't hold on to light like this. I need your hands.

I took that journey alone when I could have asked them to come with me. Now, I have another journey, I have no choice this time but to take it alone... even though I wish they were beside me.

Somebody...anybody...break the chain...break it all...

Lost

Journey

I want to go on a journey. Not a long one. Maybe a few days. I just feel like there's something I needed to know about myself. I just need to find out. That last one I took, it just doesn't feel long enough. Maybe just go around here and there for a while no? ...Maybe... just needs to see I am.

-Take your time, a step at a time. But don't forget that sometimes, you have to take a leap.