Break, give or take

Damn, doesn't it hurts when people just don't understand you?

It's not as easy my life, as everyone thinks it is. So what if on the outside I'm always smiling and joking around. It's just a facade. Truth is, I've been crying myself to sleep the past eight nine years. My heart feels so heavy as if a dumbell has been chained to it. I feel like I'm dragging bricks on my shoulder too.

"In this Craziness, Uncertainty
I wonder if we can leave the thoughts of each and everyone somewhere
In this Craziness, You gave me life
I wonder to what point we can protect a single thought
In this Craziness, Uncertainty
I wonder if we can leave the figures of each and everyone somewhere
In this Craziness, You gave me life
I wonder to what point we can protect each figure" -The Inversed Butterfly by SNoW

Sometimes I'll just look up at the wide sky, and say to myself, "Wouldn't it be great to fly and leave all these burdens on the ground." Yes, It would really be nice. No matter what I do, or how things turns out, people can always, always find a way to pin the mistake on me. One day, when I truly lose it all, all this control over my emotion which I've been desperetely trying to prevent from letting lose, someone, will have to kill me. But for now, Ican just walk and gaze up at the sky, waiting for MY liberation. Leave all the weights behind me on the ground.

"People are content with what they have on the ground. Some of us, look up towards the sky, wanting much, much more." -Air Gear